I have decided to text my landlady the news about the trickling rent. It’s not courageous and I’m not happy with myself for it; it feels like backing out of something. But if I don’t text her I really feel I won’t communicated with her at all. I don’t have the strength right now to deal with what is in store. This has been too much for me. Probably because I don’t want to be here so much that I feel crushed. I’ve been here too often this year. I’ve slowed to a crawl. This has definitely made me retreat into my shell again. I will text her. And I’ll respond to whatever text she sends me. But I can’t talk to her about this now. I’m proceeding the way I feel comfortable. I’ll let you know how it goes.